It's 1:33am and I'm curled up in my messy bed, wearing compression socks and trying to fight the craving for snacking on some cheese and crackers. It's now February and I have to say my 2018 has started off absolutely terrible. It started with,
Break outs and lots of them
A Migraine from stress that hit me after a nice workout
A Car accident
Not having medical insurance
Having to now pay over 3 grand for damages which is going to steal from my savings, my car purchase and my own debt pay off.
Getting a cold for the first time in 4 years
My phone isn't responding on one side
Soooo....yeah and it's only February. I am currently trying to wind down but I have my first essay to write for this semester and I find myself feeling the same way I felt last semester and the previous spring semester. Overwhelmed. I am still getting over my cold. I spent 6 days laying in my bed watching the sun come up and come down, full of fatigue and feelings of depression. I m kind of shocked at how awful my year has been so far. I'm trying to stay strong and tough it all out but I feel almost sick of toughing it out and pushing through. I try to stay on top of everything, workout, et right, other things I need to do daily that I won't mention here but it's super important. I feel like there are simply not enough hours in the day. I know most people feel that way. I know that I'm having a moment of weakness and a lot of that has to do with school right now but man has this year sucked for me and IT"S ONLY FEBRUARY. Anyway...it's late and I'm sleepy. It's now 2:15am and my nose is semi clogged.
I ate cheese and crackers
...and finished off some mini oreo thins. I need to get back to working out. Until next time.
