A blurry picture of orange leaves
So an update. It is now November, my last entry was in September and I was being hit with the autumn nostalgia that I feel every single Fall. Now I am feeling the burnt out, dreadful dark at 5pm irritation, that makes me want November to be over with a quickness but I also don't want December to come because of the snow. I had every intention of going on a lovely fall walk and snapping pictures of the leaves before they completely fell, however the picture above is the only picture I have taken and I was in the car, while the car was moving. So what a fail that was. The leaves have almost fallen off completely and I am completely over it. So on to the good stuff.
I currently have Marley twists in my hair, I put them in almost two weeks ago, four and a half hours of Clueless and Cruel Intentions on Netflix and I was done. I resorted back to the original YA MAN brand of Marley hair when I first installed them. I bought 7 packs and only used 3 and a half which is amazing because the Vanessa Brand I bought last time I ran through 5 packs of hair that didn't even want to twist into my hair right. So lesson learned. I wanted to put the twists in because I went to a Thunder From Down Under show with a friend so I wanted my hair to be no fuss and fabulous which it was. Also I was getting sick of doing my hair and I'm running out of hair products, so a win win all around.
At the end of September I scheduled my road test, yes the long awaited test that I have dreaded all my life. I scheduled it in Eagan, MN. So as you can imagine I spent the rest of September and October stressing hardcore. Also my month of October was absolutely horrid. My cat got sick so I spent a crap load of money getting him taken care of which in return hurt me hard financially. I was in a never-ending cycle of one thing after the other, plus my personal relationships with friends and a little closer than friends relationship all began to act crazy and crumble to pieces. October was a terrible month for me, from start to finish.
So besides all of that chaos in October, my road test...so I scheduled it for November 2nd, so from that point on I was freaking out. I spent the last three weeks getting in parallel parking practice which I did successfully but I wanted more practice before I went but my uncle became insanely lazy so that never happened. I also spent numerous hours online, Youtube more specifically looking at all driving videos, of people telling the tales of their own road tests, plus practice and tip videos. All which made me even more nervous and sick to my stomach. On top of this, my class which I wasn't doing too hot in had my second exam due the weekend after my road test, also the Thunder From Down Under with my friend and also my cousin's baby shower, so I had a lot going on, now add nerves to that and it's all a giant mess. So I ended up withdrawing from my class because I realized it was taking up so much of my time and making it harder for me to focus in another class so I had to ease up. So I withdrew the week before my test because I knew I wasn't going to be able to focus whatsoever.
The ROAD TEST
So the day of the test, I slept awful obviously, I woke up that day and only ate a rice cake, food does not work when I'm full of NERVES!. So my uncle and I arrived around 12:40, my text being at 1pm. We had to drive about 25 minutes away to Eagan which is a suburb of St.Paul, the last time I was in Eagan I was with a guy I spent my summer and fall with during 2014, so now when I think of Eagan...I don't think about my late night childhood trips to the Walmart they have out there and I'm not sure if that's a good thing. So anywho...I prayed that I would get this old man instructor who was nice but instead out walks this young hipster with ray bans, tight pants, side part, slick hair who is full of tats. Granted he was hot but I DID NOT WANT HIM TO BE MY EXAMINER. He got in the car and I thought I was going to puke, he made me so nervous. He asked me to turn on the signal lights and to make a long story short, the right one decided to break, we had 45 min to go get it fixed and come back before my appointment would have to be rescheduled and I was not about to reschedule this test considering I booked it more than a month ago. After he walked away to talk to my uncle, I was met with the gaze of other ladies taking their test and ironically all Black. I told the girl to the left of me how nervous I was, she started freaking out as well but her boyfriend was like girls calm down. So we went to the auto shop got the part and I resumed my position in the lane. I then began practicing my breathing, and praying hard that I didn't get Mr.Hipster, seriously out of all the examiners I get the young hot one. So I sat in the car impatiently waiting for my examiner. I then saw. Hipster walk out of the building with an older man and I started breathing even harder, I wanted to cry. But then a miracle happened and the hipster began walking to the other car, he glanced at me and waved and I waved back, screaming in my head how happy I was about not getting him.
So the old man got in the car and went over the course and then we began. I was insanely nervous but would have been more nervous if Mr. Hipster was in the car with me. I stopped at an intersection with no stop sign like an idiot, bent the pole of 90 degree back in and parallel parking was garbage. By doing all of that I was like oh well I had failed I am done. I swear two minutes after me doing terrible, he told me to pull over and park. We parked and he said, " Well you passed".
I PASSED.
I was in a state of shock because 1. I had barely eaten. 2. I was full of adrenaline and 3. I'm pretty sure I was blacked out during the rest of that test.
He then rambled about football and then got out and I walked past my uncle telling him that I passed, he thought I was going to fail after I bent that pole but I ended up getting a better score on the back in then the parking.
So I went into the DMV in a state of shock and anxiousness because I had to be at work very soon. So I got my picture taken. Got back home, ate some McDonalds and then went to work and worked my butt off. When I got home it finally hit me that I had passed my road test and have finally after 27 years I now have my license. Crazy right?.
So that night my body finally began to relax from the adrenaline. I CRASHED, I was out like a light. I woke up the next day fairly early and it hit me as soon as I woke up that omg...I have a drivers license. So I then began to feel super happy and pumped up. I finally did it, I finally accomplished my goal that I have been trying to for so many years. I did it, and can't believe I did it. The next day I was able to actually process it and feel the excitement of having accomplished one of my biggest goals ever. I had made a promise to myself that I would have my license by the time I went to Texas again, that and something else but I can't mention that. Anyway, my license still hasn't come in the mail, I am getting quite impatient so hopefully soon I will have it because going out to various places that require ID is no fun.
That weekend I went to Thunder From Down Under where I had a lot more fun than I thought I would seeing these half naked men prance around with bodies I'm even jealous of. Busting out Channing Tatum choreo from Magic Mike. So my drivers test was a success and I had a fun weekend following that. So what's next in store?, buying a car. So I don't mean to cut this short but it's late and I'm exhausted and this post is long. It's bedtime for me. So in conclusion, I have made many entries in this blog an my old blog about wanting to drive but not having anyone be able to take me out, I also has such a huge fear of it. But I finally got over it that day I got out there in April and worked super hard driving as much as I could so I could accomplish my goal of getting my license FALL 2016. I did it!, finally!. Until Next time.
