A cold summer night and reflection

I just drank a cup of newly bought Raspberry Leaf tea in which I  hope to tame my lovely cramps that shall be arriving full force tomorrow. It is now August, August 1st to be exact but this post will be published on August 2nd because in true me fashion, I am writing after midnight. Nightowl forever.  So about this weather it was 63 degrees today, I just got back from a late night grocery store trip and my ears practically froze. Not the typical weather for August.

So the other day a coworker of mine, finished their last day at my job and I find myself, feeling somber about it. Obviously when you work with people for a couple of years they become these beings that  have an impact on your life. You see them everyday, they get to know you, you get to know them. This coworker in particular was there before I started and I still remember their kind words for me when I was a nervous and uncomfortable wreck walking into that hospital. We shared a long hug before we parted ways and I already miss them. It makes me reflect back on me being at my job and all of the people who have come and gone and how with some people the effects are so much more and this coworker was definitely one of them. It makes me reflect on where I'm at in life. I remember when I first got my job I told myself this was the new hospital chapter of my life and I always thought about how long this chapter would last. How long I would be at this job. The first couple of months was a struggle, I wanted to make my employment there a short one. But becoming comfortable and learning my job kicked in and I stayed on and here I am 5 years later. I worry about my job now because tomorrow would be the day that this coworker would work but now they won't be there. I won't see their bag propped up on the table and hear their laughter. I know I'm extra emotional because of my impending period but...it's still sad. I lost two good coworkers just a few months back and I miss them as well but both started after me so it's a bit different. I was hired at my job with another guy, we both started at the same day but he had left after maybe a year or two and during that time I felt a different kind of somber in that we had started at the same time and now he is gone and I feel like I'm being left behind. It was very strange. I don't even know why I'm writing this but I felt the need to express how I feel and the sadness I feel about this person leaving. I made myself a tuna croissant sandwich. I've eaten way to much in the past week but had some good workouts in between but I don't feel that great. School starts at the end of this month but I'm not even trying to think about that nonsense. I want to enjoy the rest of my summer. My guy that I'm talking to is coming here toward the end of the month, we are going to a preseason football game. So that should be fun. Anyway I'm talking about absolutely nothing. Until next time....





hopefully I'm in a better mood.