Accomplishing my goals, Daylight Savings sucks and ramblings

A blurry picture of orange leaves

So an update. It is now November, my last entry was in September and I was being hit with the autumn nostalgia that I feel every single Fall. Now I am feeling the burnt out, dreadful dark at 5pm irritation, that makes me want November to be over with a quickness but I also don't want December to come because of the snow. I had every intention of going on a lovely fall walk and snapping pictures of the leaves before they completely fell, however the picture above is the only picture I have taken and I was in the car, while the car was moving. So what a fail that was. The leaves have almost fallen off completely and I am completely over it. So on to the good stuff.

I currently have Marley twists in my hair, I put them in almost two weeks ago, four and a half hours of Clueless and Cruel Intentions on Netflix and I was done. I resorted back to the original YA MAN brand of Marley hair when I first installed them. I bought 7 packs and only used 3 and a half which is amazing because the Vanessa Brand I bought last time I ran through 5 packs of hair that didn't even want to twist into my hair right. So lesson learned. I wanted to put the twists in because I went to a Thunder From Down Under show with a friend so I wanted my hair to be no fuss and fabulous which it was. Also I was getting sick of doing my hair and I'm running out of hair products, so a win win all around.

At the end of September I scheduled my road test, yes the long awaited test that I have dreaded all my life. I scheduled it in Eagan, MN. So as you can imagine I spent the rest of September and October stressing hardcore. Also my month of October was absolutely horrid. My cat got sick so I spent a crap load of money getting him taken care of which in return hurt me hard financially. I was in a never-ending cycle of one thing after the other, plus my personal relationships with friends and a little closer than friends relationship all began to act crazy and crumble to pieces. October was a terrible month for me, from start to finish. 

So besides all of that chaos in October, my road test...so I scheduled it for November 2nd, so from that point on I was freaking out. I spent the last three weeks getting in parallel parking practice which I did successfully but I wanted more practice before I went but my uncle became insanely lazy so that never happened. I also spent numerous hours online, Youtube more specifically looking at all driving videos, of people telling the tales of their own road tests, plus practice and tip videos. All which made me even more nervous and sick to my stomach. On top of this, my class which I wasn't doing too hot in had my second exam due the weekend after my road test, also the Thunder From Down Under with my friend and also my cousin's baby shower, so I had a lot going on, now add nerves to that and it's all a giant mess. So I ended up withdrawing from my class because I realized it was taking up so much of my time and making it harder for me to focus in another class so I had to ease up. So I withdrew the week before my test because I knew I wasn't going to be able to focus whatsoever.

The ROAD TEST

So the day of the test, I slept awful obviously, I woke up that day and only ate a rice cake, food does not work when I'm full of NERVES!. So my uncle and I arrived around 12:40, my text being at 1pm. We had to drive about 25 minutes away to Eagan which is a suburb of St.Paul, the last time I was in Eagan I was with a guy I spent my summer and fall with during 2014, so now when I think of Eagan...I don't think about my late night childhood trips to the Walmart they have out there and I'm not sure if that's a good thing. So anywho...I prayed that I would get this old man instructor who was nice but instead out walks this young hipster with ray bans, tight pants, side part, slick hair who is full of tats. Granted he was hot but I DID NOT WANT HIM TO BE MY EXAMINER. He got in the car and I thought I was going to puke, he made me so nervous. He asked me to turn on the signal lights and to make a long story short, the right one decided to break, we had 45 min to go get it fixed and come back before my appointment would have to be rescheduled and I was not about to reschedule this test considering I booked it more than a month ago. After he walked away to talk to my uncle, I was met with the gaze of other ladies taking their test and ironically all Black.  I told the girl to the left of me how nervous I was, she started freaking out as well but her boyfriend was like girls calm down. So we went to the auto shop got the part and I resumed my position in the lane. I then began practicing my breathing, and praying hard that I didn't get Mr.Hipster, seriously out of all the examiners I get the young hot one. So I sat in the car impatiently waiting for my examiner. I then saw.  Hipster walk out of the building with an older man and I started breathing even harder, I wanted to cry. But then a miracle happened and the hipster began walking to the other car, he glanced at me and waved and I waved back, screaming in my head how happy I was about not getting him.

So the old man got in the car and went over the course and then we began. I was insanely nervous but would have been more nervous if Mr. Hipster was in the car with me. I stopped at an intersection with no stop sign like an idiot, bent the pole of 90 degree back in and parallel parking was garbage. By doing all of that I was like oh well I had failed I am done. I swear two minutes after me doing terrible, he told me to pull over and park. We parked and he said, " Well you passed".

I PASSED.

I was in a state of shock because 1. I had barely eaten. 2. I was full of adrenaline and 3. I'm pretty sure I was blacked out during the rest of that test.

He then rambled about football and then got out and I walked past my uncle telling him that I passed, he thought I was going to fail after I bent that pole but I ended up getting a better score on the back in then the parking.

So I went into the DMV in a state of shock and anxiousness because I had to be at work very soon. So I got my picture taken. Got back home, ate some McDonalds and then went to work and worked my butt off. When I got home it finally hit me that I had passed my road test and have finally after 27 years I now have my license. Crazy right?.

So that night my body finally began to relax from the adrenaline. I CRASHED, I was out like a light. I woke up the next day fairly early and it hit me as soon as I woke up that omg...I have a drivers license. So I then began to feel super happy and pumped up. I finally did it, I finally accomplished my goal that I have been trying to for so many years. I did it, and can't believe I did it. The next day I was able to actually process it and feel the excitement of having accomplished one of my biggest goals ever. I had made a promise to myself that I would have my license by the time I went to Texas again, that and something else but I can't mention that. Anyway, my license still hasn't come in the mail, I am getting quite impatient so hopefully soon I will have it because going out to various places that require ID is no fun.

That weekend I went to Thunder From Down Under where I had a lot more fun than I thought I would seeing these half naked men prance around with bodies I'm even jealous of. Busting out Channing Tatum choreo from Magic Mike. So my drivers test was a success and I had a fun weekend following that. So what's next in store?, buying a car. So I don't mean to cut this short but it's late and I'm exhausted and this post is long. It's bedtime for me. So in conclusion, I have made many entries in this blog an my old blog about wanting to drive but not having anyone be able to take me out, I also has such a huge fear of it. But I finally got over it that day I got out there in April and worked super hard driving as much as I could so I could accomplish my goal of getting my license FALL 2016. I did it!, finally!. Until Next time.

It's the September blues...kinda

I'd usually post a picture of my latest hair style but my hair is so very uninspiring right now. So here we go, it is officially September, at least it has been for 8 days now...9 if you count that I'm writing this after midnight. We are officially heading into Fall season. Probably my most favorite season. For some reason I always get in the mood to watch Roseanne and Home Improvement. The Halloween episodes of each show. Although I've never fully celebrated Halloween, I've always enjoyed the atmosphere of it. The candy, the scary stories and movies. The crispness of dying that fall brings is so warming to me. Oh and Fall Candles are the best.

So my last few months have been filled with stress and self pity...I felt like I wasn't accomplishing my goals and it was making me extremely frustrated. I also just felt lost because of me being out of school for like 4/5 weeks left me feeling unproductive. Overall my month of August sucked major donkey feet. My weekends that I was off of work were absolutely terrible. As weird as that sounds I dreaded my weekends off because I knew I wouldn't know what to do with myself. Now add some issues with other human beings and you've got a recipe for a crapy weekend. It's just been really tough dealing with life lately and trying to keep my head up.

As for my hair...well I haven't done much to it. In fact I'm all out of hair products and need to buy some. It's been a while since I made a post about new hair products I use so I will need to do that!. But yeah, my hair is just blag right now, I've been craving straight hair but the humidity and storms we've been getting in this early September have been an obstacle. So I may not be able to get this hair straight until much deeper into Fall. I thought about putting Marley twists back in. I really do enjoy the protective styling but I feel like I'm to lazy to spend four hours installing them. Plus I'm not ready to give up my curls yet. I just don't know what to do with my hair!.

Any who school is back in session since the 22nd of August. My third class begins next monday so I'm kind of like.."Ehhhhhhblehhh", not sure what sound that makes but that is how I'm feeling. School doesn't suck right now but other areas of my life do so at this moment I'm quite bleak. Bleak indeed. As for my driving, it severely lacked in August so that is one of the reasons I was insanely irritated. I'm hoping to get some more practice done because My goal was OCTOBER!!!, however I may have to push it to November. Ultimately I made  goal to myself to have my license but the next time I go out of town to Texas(Ahhhh my old and first post about Texas on here all those years ago), any who, I hope to make that happen. So Time in winding down and I am beginning to freak out. Speaking of that, I have to head to the DMV tomorrow to get my ID renewed. Hopefully this will be my last time renewing it as a permit and soon the license will come!

On that night, I'm coming to my conclusion of this entry. It is 1:11am and I've been up since round 8:30, isn't early for my people but it is for me. Tomorrow is my day off so I can breathe a little bit before I have to work this weekend. As for work this is my official not working until close shift ever. I will be able to leave work at 7pm and I am ecstatic!!!. On that NOTE!!! It's been a long day full of pizza,new shoes, and ice cream. Until Next time.

It is summer!

  

It is officially summer...at least it has been for like a month but regardless it is summer!. It's been about three months since my last post which is long but certainly not as long as the many mia trips I've taken before.

So what can I say, it is currently 9 minutes away from being 3am, I'm extremely tired and should be asleep but I felt like writing and why not? I don't work until 7pm tomorrow which I hate dearly. Any who I finished my summer semester two days ago. I've managed to finish with an A. So two semester down in my college career and I'm standing at a 4.0 and on the deans list. Yeah we'll see how long that last. I was shocked by the A in my last class, I was absolutely sold on getting a B, but hey I'll take it. So now I am officially free until August 22nd  from all school work and it feels weird. I plan to spend my summer...working because I'm an adult and Work doesn't stop!. Also painting, I haven't done it in about two months so I need to get back into it. I've also been taking walks around trails by my place, which has been something I have been wanting to do forever. For some reason I just never felt enough courage to actually go out and do it for some odd reason. But that all changed about three weeks ago. Now I'm addicted. I try to get in at least 4 miles every time I go. The first time I walked 7 miles; I couldn't walk for a week straight. I'm currently sore from the incline from yesterday, but a good workout burn is always good!.

So other than that I've been working on my driving, a goal I've been trying to accomplish for years now but about three months ago I put my foot down and finally pulled the plug. I've been driving for about four months now!. I made it a goal to get my license in fall sometime. I'm thinking around October or November.

I made a promise to myself that 2016 would be my year of accomplishing goals and growing as a person. I have learned a lot over the past two years. I've opened myself to many things, have changed my outlook on stuff. I've become much more optimistic and ready to take on things. Obviously I still have a lot of growing and learning to do but I feel like I'm ready.

So this is all I really wanted to say. It's starting to storm out and my eyes and starting to close. I hope to write many more entries much more frequently!!. Until next time.

I will be 27 years old in...like less than an hour

I have a habit of making a blog post at random. It's officially spring and I sit here with my head in twists. A nude nail polish next to me and a peach cobbler in my crock pot. Exciting Thursday night I am having. Also there is a rabbit next to me sneezing...or coughing, or doing some unexplainable rabbit noise. Anywho. My birthday is tomorrow. Every year for the past let's say four years my birthdays have been a bust. I find myself getting depressed, grumpy or just and overall Craptastic mood.

 However this year is different. For the first time in about 4 years I feel pretty good.

I believe that the previous years caused me to reflect on my life and made me realize that I wasn't where I wanted to be and not doing what I wanted to do. As I get older I realize that I need to do things that make me happy. Set goals for myself and actually accomplish them. Obviously I have a lot to learn still but I've learned more and more what I need to do to make me a better me.

So an update on my life currently, Spring semester is ending soon and it's been an interesting beginning journey so far. I'm taking three classes at the moment. I also registered for two summer classes as well, kill me now. A big goal I've mine that I've yapped about for years on here is to get my license, time and circumstance have caused me to have a delay in getting it but I made a vow to myself that in 2016, I would get it. So I've taken control of my uncles car and have been driving.

I believe come tomorrow I will feel okay about turning a year older. Also I will be getting a massage and facial done so that certainly helps. But on a serious note I am glad to not have that dread in my stomach or the reelection which turns to full blown teary meltdowns. Bring it on 27!

New Year, New things

So as you can see, in the pics above. The twists are back in and I have on Red lipstick. Life is good.

So it's a new year and by it being January this is also the anniversary of my last relaxer that was put in my head, almost 7 years ago.

It's crazy to think about the last day I put that relaxer in and started my long hair care journey. I never thought it would be 7 years later and still no relaxer. I am so glad to have made that decision.

So any who, it's a new year and I'm ready for change. To reflect back on my 2015. I have to say it was an interesting year. Lots of self growth and learning. It started out dreadful but finished nicely I would say.

I also finally and officially enrolled in school. Its something I've been wanting to do forever. I've have my blog plus my other blog for years and I always talked about enrolling but life always got in the way. I did go to school back in 2012 but I haven't worked in the field I went to school for. Typical, but that's okay I'm glad I did. I made it a goal to start school this year and so here I am in Spring semester doing homework...well not right now of course but I will be...later. I have to say I'm very happy that I  finally did it. It may not seem like a big deal but I procrastinated for years. YEAAAAAAARRRSSSS. Last year when I turned 26 I just didn't feel happy with where I was at in life and knew I had to make  change. I always knew I wanted to pursue a degree I just needed to push myself to do it. I know If I could go back in time and start school earlier I wouldn't have simply because I wasn't mature enough. I'm ready now and doing what I wanted to do. Anyway, I need to go. I work in about three minutes. My goal this year keep up with my freaking blog!!. Until next time.

The Twists are out. Rambling like always

So It's now September and nearly 3am and I find myself up with a cup of peppermint tea deciding to go ahead and blog in my blog that I forgot about every 8 months.

So my twists are out, yes, finally out. After about three months they were just done for.

I kept them in that long its because I was debating on whether I was going to take them out and put them back in. New ones of course. But I decided nah, And bought some new Camille rose hair products. So I was eager to try those out. I would obviously need my actual hair to test them out.

So I enjoyed the twists and I'm thinking of putting them back in soon. Perhaps I'll give it a month and then I slap those bad boys back in.

Something has changed with me since I got the twists. As cheesy as this sounds I feel less fearful of trying out new do's. I feel almost fearless and ready to take on new things. I have never been able to flat twist,

I vowed that once the twists were out I would learn how to flat twists.

I learned within a few minutes. The hairstyle above is a result of that. After YEARS and I mean YEARS of not being able to do it and giving up I bucked down and learned and was so pleased I put on my new MAC Men Love Mystery Lipstick and started feeling myself.

Anyway...back to the twists. The takedown was quite the hassle. The hair washing and conditioning and detangling was a pain. I took them out slowly taking out maybe three to four twists at a time during the week, so that way, Thursday night since I'm off on Fridays I could wash then and condition this hair of mine.

Detangling...ugh..I don't know if it's because it had been a while or what but I swear the struggle was real...as real as it gets. It just seemed like my hair was trying to twists itself into a million pieces. I re did my twist plenty of times while they were in to keep them fresh but I did notice a small amount of tangling/matting in the back. Which I blame leaving them in for long on. So I know better next time.

Anyway. That is all my ramblings for now. It's late and I should get to bed. Every day I've woken up to blew skies in the morning which are making me soooooooooo freaking happy. I even dreamed about Nick Carter last night...I woke up feeling happy by the blue skies and my crush since I was 8...Yeah...until next time.

And here we have Marley twists! and a long overdue update!

I have been extra terrible with updating my blog. Absolutely, terrible. Just outstandingly terrible.

The last time I updated was December of last freaking year. Ugh.

Anyway, it is now August of 2015 I'm sure the next time I update this thing it will be 2017 and I'll be 85. That math isn't right of course but who cares. Any who...where do I even begin.

Hair related. I've been trying out all kinds of products, being less product junkie and mores just curious buyer and trying out new stuff when I run out.

My last post was about my dry/ product buildup hairline in which I haven't had a problem with since discovering my life months ago now.

I did realize my hair was quite dry last winter, so I began cowashing every week in..January or February. And shampooing once a month with a regular shampoo.

The Shampoo I used being Shea Moisture's...Honey and Manuka oil line. Co washing with As I am Coconut Co wash and a variety of Hair masks by Shea Moisture mostly, my favorite being from the JBCO line

I do have to say so myself, since I've been natural the amount of natural hair products or at least prouducts geared to those of us who are natural have tripled. I remember if I needed a product I would have to order online at curl mart. Everywhere I go now I can find an abundance of products for us Natural ladies and I couldn't be more excited.

So anyway back to dry hair. I started co washing to keep my hair feeling like butter, I realized I wasn't retaining as much length as I would like.

Now don't get me wrong I do not care to have super long locks but I do care if my hair is dry and breaking. I had looked at old photos of myself and realized from 2011 to...well 2015 the beginning of I had not seen much growth.

I know the product buildup obviously caused my hair to take a giant GIANT hit!. So right then and there I had to correct it. 

So coupled with the co washing, every night or every other night I would moisturize and seal

Which brings me to now. I'm still doing that but I also decided to get some Marley twists in my life and boy oh boy.

             

So a few months ago, I had looked into Marley twists but quickly forgot about their entire existence. Fast forward to this summer. I went to Louisiana and saw a relative with these gorgeous twists in. From that moment on I became obsessed. When I got back home, I researching the living daylights out of Marley twists!. At first I was going to buy the hair and then have someone install it but then I came across so many videos where practically all of the girls did them, themselves...so I was like well what the FRENCH!. I realized a salon would charge 150+ to instal them which nobody and most certainly me does not have time for.

So I educated myself from youtube. Watched every video there was until I felt like I could do it.

Marley braid hair brand YA MAN!

Once I got the hair, that night I washed my hair and tried to install them. I failed hardcore donkey butts. HARDCORE!. I almost gave up. I literally questioned my entire existence. 

But after freaking out, almost crying, regretting life. I watched one more video which helped me with the hand coordination. 

I woke up at 9:53am and immediately started my hair. I finished around 8:00pm. My body ached, I officially hated hair but my hair was finished.

I loved it. However, my hair was way too heavy, it was toooooooo LOOONGG!!!. ME working in a hospital running around all day simply could not deal. I used one and two strands for my hair, and finished with three packs.

Then came the trouble.

My ends would not seal, the hair was took long.

So I cut it,

An cut it too blunt which resulted in them not sealing with the boiling hot water method

So I ended up burning the ends which is the short hair pic above. I dealt with it, but hated it. I hated the feeling of the burnt ends, they also snagged at the twists which was a giant pain.

About a week later I washed my hair and wanted to re do a few of the twists. Long story short and five episodes and five hours of Graceland down the drain. I ended up redoing  my entire head with the remaining packs of hair I had. But this time using one strand of hair on each hair. Which resulted in lighter less heavy and bulky twists. I still had quite the challenge sealing my ends, but I was not and I repeat NOT about to burn those ends again. I couldn't enjoy my twists because of those crunchy burnt things!!

So my very first pic, pictured above is my second and final results. I absolutely love the twists and so happy I was able to do them myself and save money and also learning how to to them for the future. I currently am debating on how long I want to keep them in for and if I'll install more after I take these ones out, we'll see. Anyway until next time, it's 1:15am and I have a 72 dollar face mask on my face that should have been off hours ago. Goodnight.